Talk about on the move

So it's been a full year since the last time I entered this place. Since then, I've moved from New Hampshire, to California, to Tennessee. Within TN, I've moved around a lot. This year alone, I've had 6 or 7 different places I've lived. And now, I'm going back to sunny California. I've tried so hard to keep up appearances and expectations, mainly those I have of myself, but my job is just so uninteresting to me. I've realized that just helping people isn't really what motivates me in life. At least not how I had imagined. I've come to find that what truly makes me laugh and enjoy every day is a child. I need to surround myself with the lives of those who have yet to live their lives. I want to be a part of that enrichment, growing, learning process. I do help children sometimes now, but it's in such a roundabout way, and I can't get into disaster work. Especially when the encounters with youth can sometimes mean the end of that youth. I need to go back to where I can live with my baby (without actually having a baby) and finish my schooling in what I've always wanted to do, which is special education. It's been a roundabout journey, but I hope that the end is near and as fulfilling as I imagine it to be.